Well the doctors appointments officially start up today. I have my first appointment at 10:30 this morning, followed by my big appointment with the surgeon for my leg, at 8:00 am tomorrow morning. It is cloudy and drizzling here, pretty much befits my overall mood at the moment. I know once I have the information I need from the surgeon tomorrow I will be in a much better place to wrap my mind around all this differently and hopefully more gracefully.
I am just off my game and for like the ultimate game player and competitor in me this is not the best of circumstances. I am trying to make the most out of it, but this second week has proven quite difficult. Thankfully I have Stephanie and always my phenom, Bella. I would be lost and without much hope, but instead there is a ray of hope that I can catch my mind before it heads into free fall. Just need the operation to happen, although things will undoubtedly get worse before they start getting better. I am anxious to see what the timeline looks like for surgery and recovery. Will summer semester be an option, or will I have to be okay with taking just an online programming class? I really pray I can return to school and campus for the summer. After tomorrow’s appointment, I need to take back the last bit of paperwork for my medical leave and class withdrawals.
I hope after today’s appointment I can come home and crank out some writing on my piece, The Cake is Now. I am going to try to capture my mindset from the onset before the illness began, illustrating the seeds of bliss that were planted before I got to being really ill. I am also going to work on my web page with all the new programming I learned in my last class. The cascading sheets is really amazing and not difficult at all. Not sure I would even call it programming, its something of a hybrid.
Off in this dreadful weather to the doctor and the pharmacy. Hoping the rain stops, and the cloudy skies outside and residing within me pass quickly.
BORN THIS WAY-2016